Jennifer Lopez thought she was ‘going to die’ after ‘painful’ Ben Affleck split

Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck’s road to marriage was not an easy one.

In a new interview with Apple Music 1, the “Marry Me” singer reflected on her rekindled romance with the “Deep Water” actor

She recalled the pain she felt after they ended their first engagement in 2004.

“It was so painful after we broke up,” Lopez, 53, told host Zane Lowe.

“Once we called off that wedding 20 years ago, it was the biggest heartbreak of my life. I honestly felt like I was going to die.”

She continued, “It sent me on a spiral for the next 18 years where I just couldn’t get it right."

"But now, 20 years later, it does have a happy ending. It has the most ‘would never happen in Hollywood’ ending,” She added.